What is life? It’s a question that has been pondered for ages, often left unanswered. From the moment I was born, I was told that my mother conceived me in ward "B." A lot of people gathered to celebrate my "B-irthday, and my first present was a "B-ear). The man who carried us home drove a "B-lue-B-roadcasting vehicle. At the tender age of just a month, I moved with my Grandmother to Hippo Valley Estates, Chiredzi and grew up in a humble neighborhood of Chishamiso Unit/Area "B/2"
I grew up as a strong and “B”-brilliant young boy. I attended primary school at a group "B" school, but I never performed as expected because I struggled to shape my “Bs” well. When I moved on to secondary school, life seemed to show me no favor. I sat for my O’ Levels and ended up with all “Bs.” While I felt content with my results, someone informed me that I had fallen victim to the ideology of false consciousness.
I then proceeded to A Levels, which I thought represented a higher level of achievement. I believed that here, I could truly acquire knowledge and succeed. However, the results were shocking—I once again received all “Bs.” It became painfully clear that I belonged to the “B” class, or in other words, the “second class,” based on the alphabetical order. This realization left me feeling worthless, and I was disheartened by the thought of being categorized as “B-class.” (224)
I wondered, "When does this cycle end? God, what is my purpose?" At that moment, I decided I needed radical change to escape this “B” status, but my situation seemed to worsen. Eventually, I chose to follow the wind, seeking to focus on life's solid side. I reminded myself not to feel inferior or allow societal constructs to define my worth. I found comfort in the belief that “God knows our right positions.”
As noted in Jeremiah 29:11, “For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.” I embraced the idea that my level is the best for me, despite societal expectations. Ultimately, my journey has taught me that success is not determined by external labels but by my own understanding and acceptance of my unique path.
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